So my first date is done.
Woo hoo!! Bandage removed. Job done.
It actually went better than expected.
He was very nice, had lovely eyes and was very stylish.
Talking was a bit tricky, because of language issues and also because he would often just stare into my eyes.
Couple of downsides, he smokes which is a no on my profile and he is the same height as me, which is a bit tricky if I ever wanted to wear heels.
We went for a walk after our drink and he wanted to hold hands, which I didn’t mind but also didn’t really want.
It didn’t feel right.
I know it's been a long time since I held a mans hand other than my husbands and part of it feels odd to be doing it at all, but I also hope when I find someone I click with then it will all come flooding back and I will feel the same desires and instincts I did when I was younger.
Or at least it will feel right and not awkward.
Here’s hoping anyway.
So now, I haven’t decided if I will see him again or not, but he is very keen and this brings me to the part I hate most about dating.
It's one of the reasons I didn’t do more of it in my teens and twenties. I hate upsetting people.
I know most people just ghost people they aren’t interested in nowadays.
I think this is simply the worst.
I mean I hate upsetting people or letting people down but ghosting someone must make them feel even worse.
I think it's the coward's way out.
So if anyone has any tips on how to gently let a man down, let me know?