The quiet ones
How can you tell if they are shy, nervous or they are just not into you?
Breeze date no. 2 happened yesterday. I was less nervous this time, partly because the last one had gone well and partly because this guy was the same age as me.
I know it’s a new world and it’s ok for young men and older ladies to date/hook up but my mind is not yet entirely convinced, although I am working really hard on it.
Anyway, back to the date.
The bar was too loud, you couldn’t hear anything.
He turned up and looked uncomfortable and serious.
We sat and tried talking but it didn’t flow as we couldn’t really hear each other.
It wasn’t like the first date, when we talked easy and it was practically effortless.
However, this guy had the loveliest eyes and I found I was more attracted to him then my first date.
This presented a problem for me.
Why?
Surely its a good thing.
Nope.
When I am not that worried, its easy to relax and just enjoy yourself.
We moved on to a quieter place for our second drink and it did make things easier. I felt from what he said and how he behaved that he was an introvert and didn’t find things like this easy.
I however, was probably too chatty trying to fill the gaps.
He walked me back to the train station which followed the most awkward moment of my whole dating experience so far.
Do we hug goodbye, don’t we. What to do?
He looked as unsure as me which made me more nervous.
So I did a loose hug and thanked him for a nice time. Then said something stupid like, ‘wasn’t so bad’ it was meant to be a question for him but in hindsight it just sounded wrong. I then gave him a kiss on the cheek and left.
Awkward!!!!!!
Still I enjoyed myself and I REALLY liked his eyes. I was still smiling when I met up with my friends a couple of hours later.
Next came filling in the feedback form.
With my first date I didn’t have to worry, he made his feelings very clear and was super confident so he asked for my number before I left and whatsapp'd me as I was walking away commenting on my butt.
So do I say I want to switch numbers?
My gut said yes.
However, I had a bad feeling he wouldn't want to. I think he is looking for something long term, which I am not.
I also think I might be a bit too much for him. Too chatty, too out going and just too much.
I went with my gut as I have nothing to lose and said I would like to swap numbers.
Now it is the next day and he has not bloody bothered to fill in his feedback form yet!!!!
Seriously!!!!
I mean if he isn’t interested he could just fill it in and put me out of my misery but no. The waiting is the worst part.
So now I find myself going over the events of the date in my head and wondering how they sounded and how I came across. ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!
STOP!!!!
I don’t mind how this turns out. I just want to know. That's the worse part.
Oh well, I have a lunch date today so at least that should distract my brain for a bit.