Ok. Over analysing again!
Why do I do this every time I'm remotely attracted to someone.
Maybe because it's actually my gut warning me.
I over think everything in this mode.
Why hasn't he sent a message?
Is he on the dating app? Yes. So he's looking for someone else? Or he is playing lots of women at once?
Never mind, that I am doing the exact same thing and it just happens that I still prefer him. It's not like attractive men grow on trees.
I figure he's not that interested otherwise he would be messaging me instead of logging on to the app. Also he would have asked me out by now.
He just wanted the flirtation online and that's it. Why don't any of the guys I like either exist or want to actually meet in real life?
I need a mantra. I need something to remind me to keep things in perspective.
I don't need a man!!
There is always another man around the corner (maybe not my cup of tea but I'm trying to be positive)
I'm just having fun.
I've been chatting to lots of guys too.
I haven't got time to meet anyone for another 2 weeks anyway.
Whilst typing this I'm actually thinking.
I struggle to find men I am really attracted to. It would be really nice just to find one to meet that I like and likes me.
Why does it have to be so complicated.
My life is so full of difficult stressful things all I really want is some light relief.
Yes I'm talking to lots of guys and having fun but deep down I'm a one guy at a time kinda girl.
Not talking commitment but it would be nice to just have the one I guy I like.
Why can't the guys I fancy be as attentive as the ones I don't?
This is why a lot of my historical boyfriends have been relationships I have gradually been convinced into rather than ones I took a running jump into. It's probably also why I've always been the one to end a relationship. It's safer.
I know what all the advice says. If you're having doubts ask them to video chat or meet.
Well I can't meet at the moment and I'm a little scared to video chat in case he doesn't like what he sees. However If they avoid it or let you down last minute you know they are fake in some way or another.
The trouble is I also don’t want to have my doubts confirmed by finding out he is yet another fake. It just gets a bit depressing after a while.
So I've already decided he has to be fake. Let's be realistic, why would an attractive man in his later 30's really be interested in someone who is 45?
Easy target.
That's what they are thinking.
I'm thinking if he is also a catfish that will then make at least 5 I was aware of. I think enough is enough. It's not like anyone else has come along that I'm that bothered about. It might be time to try a different, possibly more selective dating app.
First things first. I have to give him a chance to fail. So I'll wait and see of he messages me again.
Later that evening whilst I'm out, I get a message. I respond and then I ask if he wants to do a video chat at some point? His response is very positive ( but I know from experience that doesn't mean anything).
He suggests the weekend, but I'm going to be away and I want this over with beforehand so I can forget about him turning out to be another failure whilst I'm away. So I suggest Friday night.
He can do it but not until 10.
Ok, that will do.
It doesn't have to be a long chat and as it isn't likely to happen I've got nothing to lose.
God when did I get so pessimistic? Or maybe it's just realistic.
So let's wait and see shall we. Tomorrow night will either be a shock and he'll Video chat me or one more fail and back to the drawing board for me.